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Chapter 5 of 20

Properly Dead

Chapter 5: Delhi

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Delhi arrived like a slap.

Not the romantic Delhi of Lutyens' bungalows and India Gate sunsets. Not the intellectual Delhi of JNU seminars and Janpath bookshops. The Delhi that hit Mishti Lal at 6:14 AM on a February morning at the Anand Vihar ISBT was: the real one. The one that smelled of diesel exhaust and urine and the specific desperation of a thousand people who had arrived from a thousand small towns and were now standing in a bus terminus trying to figure out which direction was: forward.

The Bilaspur Rajdhani had been delayed — of course it had been delayed, because Indian Railways operates on a schedule that exists primarily to be deviated from — and Mishti had spent the extra three hours in her berth, staring at the upper bunk's underside, listening to the train's rhythm change as it crossed state lines. Chhattisgarh to Madhya Pradesh to Uttar Pradesh to Delhi. Each state announced by the chai wallahs who boarded at stations and called their wares in dialects that shifted like radio frequencies — the guttural Chhattisgarhi becoming the rounded MP Hindi becoming the sharp UP accent becoming, finally, the clipped Delhi tongue that said "chai" like it was a single syllable and a command.

She had one bag. A rucksack — her father's old patrol bag, olive green, military surplus from the Bilaspur cantonment sale, with her name written on the inside flap in Dhanraj's careful handwriting. Inside: three kurtas, two salwars, one pair of jeans, underwear, the Classmate notebook (hidden between the folds of a shawl), her forestry textbooks (two, because she still had exams), toiletries, and a steel tiffin containing her mother's theplas. The theplas: the universal Indian mother's provision for travel, the food that said "I don't trust anyone else's cooking to keep you alive."

Mihir had sent a car. Not a government car — a private one. A white Maruti Ertiga driven by a woman named Audrey. Except Audrey was not what Mishti had expected. Not a driver. Not an assistant. A woman in her late twenties with cropped hair and the specific posture of someone who had been trained — militarily trained, the spine-straight, shoulder-back posture that Mishti recognised from the CRPF jawans who patrolled the Naxal corridors in south Chhattisgarh.

"Mishti?" Audrey didn't get out. She leaned across and pushed the passenger door open. "Get in. We're late."

"Late for what?"

"Everything. Mihir is waiting. And Mihir doesn't wait."

Mishti got in. The car smelled of: car freshener (jasmine, synthetic, too sweet) and beneath it, gun oil. The specific metallic smell of a weapon that has been recently cleaned. Mishti knew the smell — her father's service rifle, the .315 bore that he carried on anti-poaching patrols, smelled the same way after its weekly cleaning.

"You're armed," Mishti said.

Audrey glanced at her. The glance: evaluative. Not hostile. "You smelled it."

"My father is a forest ranger. I know the smell of a cleaned weapon."

"Good. Most recruits don't notice. The ones who do tend to: last."

The car moved through Delhi. Past the Anand Vihar flyover, through the Yamuna crossing — the river, this time of year, was a grey ribbon of polluted water that smelled of industrial runoff and broken promises — past ITO, past Pragati Maidan, into the part of Delhi that tourists never see and Google Maps renders as a grey blur: the institutional zone south of Lodi Road, where the buildings are unmarked and the walls are high and the gates have guards who don't smile.

They stopped at a building on a lane off Jor Bagh Road. The building: colonial. Two stories. Red brick with white trim. The kind of building that had been built by the British for some administrative purpose and had been repurposed by the Indian government for some other administrative purpose and was now being used for a purpose that appeared on no register at all. The gate: steel. The guard: armed. The nameplate: blank. Not missing — blank. A brass plate with nothing on it, polished to a gleam, as if to say: we are here, and we are: nothing.

"Welcome to the Division," Audrey said.

*

Inside: not what Mishti expected. She'd expected — what? Computers. Screens. The kind of high-tech operation that Hindi films depicted when they wanted to convey "government secret." Banks of monitors and people in headsets and a large map with red pins.

Instead: a haveli. The building's interior had been preserved — the colonial shell containing an older Indian structure. Arched doorways. A central courtyard with a peepal tree that was clearly older than the building. Rooms arranged around the courtyard, their doors open, revealing: books. Manuscripts. Maps. A room that appeared to be a kitchen, from which the smell of rajma emerged — the unmistakable, comforting, kidney-bean smell that made Mishti think of home and Thursday lunchtimes and her mother's pressure cooker whistling.

Mihir was in the courtyard. Sitting under the peepal tree. Cross-legged. On a mat. Not a chair. The posture of a man who sat on the ground because the ground was where the important things happened, and chairs were for: visitors.

"Mishti. You've met Audrey."

"She drives fast."

"She does everything fast. It's her gift and her limitation." Mihir stood. The standing: fluid. The motion of a body that moved without the usual catalogue of adjustments — the knee crack, the hip shift, the groan — that accompanied a man his apparent age. He moved like water. "Come. I'll show you the operation."

The Division — which had no other name, because names create records and records create vulnerabilities — occupied the entire building. Twelve rooms around the courtyard. Each room: a function.

The Reading Room: where the seers — Mihir's word, not "psychics," not "sensitives," seers — sat and received. Three chairs, positioned in a triangle, facing the courtyard. The chairs were old — the wicker-and-wood chairs of a government office circa 1970, the kind that creaked when you breathed. "We've tested every configuration," Mihir said. "These chairs, in this room, facing the peepal tree, produce the clearest reception. We don't know why. We suspect the tree."

The Map Room: where the visions were plotted. A large table — teak, hand-carved, the legs shaped like elephant feet, clearly older than independent India — covered with maps. Not digital maps. Paper maps. Survey of India topographic sheets, state maps, city plans. "We use paper because paper doesn't crash," Mihir said. "And because our seers work better with physical objects. Something about the material connection. The hand touching the map while the mind touches: the location."

The Dispatch Room: where the field teams were coordinated. Three phones — landlines, the rotary kind, olive green, the kind that Mishti had seen in old government offices and assumed were: decorative. "These lines are more secure than any encrypted digital system," Mihir said. "They run on copper wire laid in 1947. Nobody can tap them because nobody knows they exist."

The Kitchen: where Ramu Kaka — a man who appeared to be eighty but moved with the efficiency of forty — produced meals for the team. The rajma Mishti had smelled. The rice. The achaar. The chai — not Ganesh Bhaiya's iron-water brew, but Delhi chai, the milk-and-cardamom variety, the chai that tasted like the city: complex, layered, never quite what you expected.

"How many people work here?" Mishti asked.

"Currently: eleven. Three seers. Four field operatives. Two analysts. Audrey. And me."

"That's twelve."

"I don't count myself."

"Why not?"

Mihir smiled. The same smile from the Lormi verandah. The smile that contained: centuries. "Because I'm not: staff. I'm infrastructure."

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